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Hate Me Like You Love Me

Chapter 111

Ch. 111 / 120 May 04, 2026

Caleb’s POV

The worst part about fathers is that they never stop calling, even after you have stopped answering.

My phone buzzes against the kitchen counter at 7:14 on a Tuesday morning, and I know before I look. The number is not saved in my contacts, but my body recognizes it the way a dog recognizes the sound of a belt being pulled from its loops.

Shoulders tighten. Jaw locks. Every muscle braces for impact before my brain has time to process.

Simon.

I let it ring four times before I pick up. Not because I am deciding whether to answer, but because I need him to wait.

"Caleb."

His voice is quieter than I expected. None of the slick confidence from the courtroom, none of the wounded martyr routine he performed on the stand. Just my name, spoken by the man who gave it to me.

"What do you want, Simon?"

"I want to see you. One more time, before the hearing next week." A pause, careful and deliberate. "Father to son."

The words land in my chest like a fist wrapped in velvet. Father to son. As if those titles ever meant what they were supposed to mean between us. As if he did not spend my childhood turning those words into weapons.

"We said everything that needed saying in that courtroom."

"No. We said everything the lawyers needed us to say." His breath crackles through the speaker. "I am asking for thirty minutes. A diner, somewhere public. You pick the place. I will come alone."

Every instinct I have sharpened over twenty-one years screams at me to hang up. Simon does not ask for meetings. He orchestrates ambushes. He does not request. He maneuvers.

But there is a sound in his voice I have never heard before. Not the rehearsed remorse from the witness stand, not the calculated calm he used to deploy before the violence started. This is the sound of a man with nothing left to leverage.

"Dutch's Diner," I say. "Noon. You get thirty minutes and not a second more."

"Thank you, Caleb."

I hang up before the gratitude can settle anywhere it does not belong.

Serena finds me ten minutes later, leaning against the counter with my coffee going cold between my hands. She reads my face the way she always does, with that quiet precision that strips away every mask I have ever built.

"What happened?"

"Simon called. He wants to meet."

Her body goes still. "When?"

"Today. Noon. I am going."

"Caleb." She steps closer, her hand finding my forearm. Her fingers are warm against my skin. "You do not owe him this."

"I know I do not owe him." I set down the mug and cover her hand with mine. "But if I do not sit across from him and look him in the eye without a judge between us, he stays inside my head forever. I need to face him on my own terms, not as his son on a witness stand."

She searches my face, and I watch the war play out behind her eyes. The protectiveness fighting the understanding.

"I could come with you. Wait in the car, at least."

"No. I need to do this alone."

"That is not strength talking, Caleb. That is stubbornness."

"Maybe." I press my lips to her forehead, holding the contact longer than necessary because the warmth of her skin steadies the tremor in my hands. "But it is my stubbornness, and I have earned it."

She pulls back just enough to look at me. Her eyes hold the same fierce certainty they held in the courthouse hallway, the same unwavering belief that I am more than the sum of Simon's damage.

"Thirty minutes," she says firmly. "If you are not home by one, I am coming to find you."

"I would expect nothing less."

***

Dutch's Diner sits on the corner of Elm and Fifth, a relic from the seventies with cracked vinyl booths and coffee that tastes like it was brewed during the Nixon administration. I chose it because it is neutral territory.

Neither of us has memories here. No ghosts hiding in the corners.

I arrive fifteen minutes early and take the booth facing the door. Old habit. Simon taught me that without meaning to — the instinct to always watch the entrance, to never let anyone approach from behind.

He walks in at noon exactly. Punctual, for once in his miserable life.

The man standing in the doorway looks like a rough sketch of the father I remember. The broad shoulders have narrowed. The thick dark hair I inherited has gone mostly gray, thinning at the temples.

His clothes are clean but worn at the seams, the collar of his jacket fraying where it meets his neck.

He spots me and crosses the diner with measured steps, sliding into the booth across from me like he is lowering himself into water he already knows is cold.

"You look good," he says.

"Skip the pleasantries, Simon. Clock is ticking."

The waitress appears. He orders black coffee. I already have mine. She leaves, and the silence between us fills with twenty-one years of everything we have never said.

"I am not here to apologize," he starts, wrapping his hands around the mug when it arrives. His knuckles are scarred, the skin stretched tight over bone.

I notice the faint tremor in his fingers that was not there three years ago. "An apology from me would be an insult to everything I put you through."

"Then why are you here?"

"Because I watched you on that stand." His eyes meet mine, and I see it there. Not the cruelty, not the calculation. Exhaustion.

The bone-deep kind that lives in a person who has been running from himself for decades and finally stopped. "I watched my son describe his childhood, and I heard it for the first time. Not my version. Yours."

My throat tightens. "You heard it plenty. You were there for all of it."

"I was there," he agrees. "But I never listened. There is a difference, and it took losing everything for me to understand it."

"So this is your redemption arc." The bitterness tastes familiar on my tongue. "The changed man, humbled by loss, seeking closure with the son he destroyed."

"No." He shakes his head slowly. "I am not redeemed, Caleb. Men like me do not get redeemed. We just get tired enough to stop pretending we deserve to be."

The honesty catches me off guard. My fingers tighten around the ceramic mug, the heat almost painful against my palms.

"The divorce hearing is next week," he continues. "I am not going to contest it. I will sign whatever they put in front of me, and then I am leaving. For good this time."

"Why?"

"Because your mother deserves to be free of me. She deserved it twenty years ago, and I was too selfish and too sick to let her go."

I stare at him across the table. The scar behind my ear throbs with a phantom ache that memory refuses to release.

"You used her as a cage," I say quietly. "You used me as the lock."

His face crumples for half a second before he pulls it back together. "I know."

We sit in silence while the diner hums around us. Plates clatter in the kitchen. A child laughs near the register. Normal life, carrying on while two broken men sit across from each other in a cracked vinyl booth, measuring the distance between damage and the faintest outline of peace.

Simon reaches into his jacket and pulls out a plain white envelope. He slides it across the table with both hands, the motion slow, deliberate, like he is handling the last fragile thing he owns.

"Open it after I am gone." His voice catches on the edge of the sentence, rough and splintered. "It is the only honest thing I have ever given you."